This message has been taken and adapted from a blog post that I made pre-2007, back when yahoo! had blogs. I didn’t keep all of the posts I made there although I wish I had but this particular topic has stuck with me throughout my journey. I pray it is a blessing to you.
“This was inspired by a conversation I had from a friend.
Holding on to the past, afraid to let it go, for some reason, you just can’t seem to let go of the past. So you look back, reminisce, and sometimes even wonder if somehow things weren’t just better back then. But then you glance ahead, and you see all this promise and mystery that lies ahead of you, and yet you hesitate…you’re stuck between now and then. You’re afraid that if you let it go, you truly would be alone although you know you are never alone and that God is with you. Fear is a powerful element that tries to control our lives. Who lied to you? Who told you that you are powerless? That you have to just accept and live in fear?
1 John 4 is a really good chapter to read concerning love and fear. 1 John 4:18 says, There is no fear in love; but perfect love casteth out fear: because fear hath torment. He that feareth is not made perfect in love.
2 Timothy 1:7 is also good, and it says, For God hath not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind. The whole of 2 Timothy 1 is a good chapter to read as well.
Proverbs 1:7 The fear of the LORD is the beginning of knowledge: but fools despise wisdom and instruction.
I myself have been living in fear of many things, like I mentioned in a previous posting, I’m done with hiding this stuff. Right now I am afraid that if I let go, I will lose control. Strange thing about that is, I know I’m not even in control now so what’s so hard about giving it up?
Some people say that it is inbred in our humanness that we should fear. But I ask you this, when we give our lives to Christ, aren’t we then born again? So many times it is my opinion (no one else’s) that we use our being human as an excuse. Fear does not always generate its desired reaction. We are afraid for a while, then after a while life goes on and we continue living the way we were before that bout of fear came into our lives, or as best as we can anyway. Call me cold or whatever you like, but the fear that people felt after 9/11, I did not feel. I was scared for a brief moment, but the sadness and sorrowfulness that so many lives were senselessly lost remained. It was as if from deep within me, I was comforted in knowing that no matter what happened, whether I lived or died, I was going to a better place. I knew that no amount of fear of planes, or of certain persons would change the things that are going to happen.
Even through all of the messed up stuff I’ve gone through personally, people would think I’d be afraid of men, but I’m not. I haven’t let fear of another bad incident keep me from them. And should I?”
It’s amazing to look back on where I was at that point in my life. I will say that I do know that God was taking me through a certain process of healing and I 100% believe that learning to trust God fully was a part of that. Today I can say that I don’t so much struggle with the feelings of control because I know I have no control over anything, but because I know God is in control and I trust him…I don’t worry. If you are interested in seeing me update this writing, please let me know. God bless!!